Just shoot me

Alone... Again.

I want to be alone, need to be alone. But it´s so painfully scary. I feel you everywhere. All around me you show up. After all this time I had finally started to forget. To push it to the back of my mind. Finally I had started to sleep well at night.

I just want to let my life go on without always having it haunting me like a dark, dark shadow never letting me go. But you came around - and you ruined everything. You remind me of that day, and you remind me of everything I need to forget. Now I no I can´t. Maybe I never will.

I can´t go on living like this - don´t you see you ruin my life? Well, of course you don´t. And you wouldn´t give a rats ass anyway, would you? Could you? But even if you could it´s too late, now. And I wait up at night, I dare not go to sleep. That´s where it all haunts me the worst. I´m back there, reliving it again and again. Somebody save me from these horrors of my twisted mind!